Post Tenebras Spero Lucem

by New Vegas

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released March 15, 2014

Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Brette Ciamarra at Studio 344.

On this album New Vegas is:
Jimmy Howell
Zac Dranko
Tyler Cramer
Eric Reynolds

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Track Name: Run and Hide
I never thought that I'd be giving up
I could only hope that this would be the last Time that I would ever see
The truth that lies inside me

The truth
That I've
Kept buried Inside

The simple fact that I want to be buried alive inside of my own mind

I've lost myself to this sickness
And with this I've become
A person who loathes and hates
Always finding an escape

Running from myself and I
Can't help but find solace in
Looking at the bottom of this empty bottle in my hand
Numbness takes ahold and I can't
Move or speak
For myself or what I've done

When I find an answer to this life I'll be fine but until then I'll just x2
I'll just x4

Run and hide
Far away
From this life
From these petty lies
Track Name: Life Decisions
Hold to these vices tightly
as you slowly drown
in the wake of your mistakes
and its takes a great
toll on your mind
when you get left behind

You think your in the right
In the clear and there's nothing wrong with your life or what your doing
But you can't see just who your hurting
While you've been flirting
With death so romantically
While you stumble half asleep


Half dead from the things you love
A constant struggle
From hell and what's above
This can't be a real
A way to finally not feel
this cant be real
a way to finally not feel
Any of your pain or past regrets inside
You've become someone who thinks they should have died
From the shit that you put into your veins it slowly drives you insane

You think your in the right
In the clear and there's nothing wrong with your life or what your doing
But you can't see just who your hurting
While you've been flirting With death
Track Name: Post Tenebras Spero Lucem
I have vivid dreams of suicide
A self sacrificial
ceremony of madness
I'd give anything to feel alive
But lately all I've wanted is to die

Maybe tomorrow I'll feel so much better
If I can only make it through the night
Maybe tomorrow I'll feel alive
Maybe tonight I'll step and fly


I wonder if I'll have friends in hell

Because No one on this planet knows me well
All they ever give me is sympathy
But sympathy is like a
slap in the face a fucking disgrace
Just telling me that it's obvious I'm going insane

I can't feel my soul
As I plunge down and sift through years of old
Memories
Of my lives past and my loves lost


I'd give anything to feel alive
But lately all I've wanted is to die

Maybe tomorrow I'll feel so much better
If I can only make it through the night


Maybe I'll just kill myself
A step off the edge
or a bullet to the brain
To help me see the light
of my life
Post tenebras spero lucem
After darkness I hope for light
Post tenebras spero lucem
Track Name: Familiar Strangers
I woke up in a strange an familiar place blurred visions and such disgrace I saw a man in the corner of the room
He said "son Id hoped you'd wake up soon, it's almost half past noon. I've got to send you on your way here's some hair of the dog to start your day"
I've been here before
Face down on the floor

I spent last night
with my worst friend
a night I've relived
over and over again
The bell of death
Tolls for me

As I drown in the comfort
Of this drink
In the comfort
Of this bottle
In the comfort
Of these sins

I've spent the last four years drinking my life away
And my biggest mistake was pushing you all away
So now I call on my only friend to numb me with Novocain
To rid me Of this somber pain

But I see the light
It shines so clearly
I hope the end
is somewhere near me
I'll press on
Always looking back
Leaving me restless
And stressed out
with a constant lack
Of a care
Of where
I think I'm going
Track Name: Questions
Mother I'm tired
Lay me to rest
Father I'm lost
Show me the best
Path to take
Out of this
Miserable place
Show me the way
to be whole again

Brother I'm sorry
For the things I said
Sister I'm sorry
For turning my head
I have failed
I have failed you
So miserably
So please light the way
And show me to sleep

Show me to sleep
Show me to sleep
I just need some sleep
I'm cowering and weak
I'm shaking at my knees
I just want to lay my head
And rest eternally

I know that I've failed you
And I may not be set free
But father please tell me
If you have a plan for me
I have no direction
Oh why can't you see

Father please tell me you have a plan for me

Give me something
To
Believe in
Track Name: Self Destruction
I've built this home
Laid this foundation down
On unstable soils
Six feet beneath the ground
I Can't help but smile now
As my face hits the ground
Filled with courage now
My eyes are falling out

I hit the bottle
To ease my stress
This bottle comes
With constant unrest
It fights my fears
But keeps me awake
It keeps me awake
Through the night

Why me?

My life hits the ground

I see the picture a beautiful structure my life laid out in maps of blue an white ill give my final plight the plight for my life ill paint the picture a bottled sacrifice

It's too late
Too late for me
It's too late
Too late for me

I've built this picture perfect creation
From An image in my head destroyed it slowly with pills and bottled sins
Ill end my life
A self sacrifice

If this
Keeps on
It won't
Matter
Ill be
Dead soon

If this
Keeps on
It won't
Matter
Ill be
Dead soon